Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Evolving...

Evolving is what I've done in the past year. Looking back, I've realized that it's the God in me that keeps me going, that keeps me striving to have the heart of gold. My life hasn't been ideal but I'm loving, learning & living it.

The hatred, anger or the sadness that people say I should have towards BJ has disappeared over time. He has disappointed me but because I don't speak of him in a negative way people automatically assume that I have feelings towards him. I only wish him the best in life & pray that God helps him turn a new leaf when it comes to our situation.

ON TO THE NEXT: well I've dated a few guys this year & they all seemed to be pretty good guys at the beginning then in the end they proved they weren't meant for me. On my birthday weekend, I've met someone that may be my match...he's a people person, funny, sincere & honest. We'll see if this goes anywhere. Going on a date will be our next step in this journey. As his cousin (which is a good friend of mine for 14+ yrs) said you'll never know til you try! :)

All the compassions of all the tender fathers in the world compared with the tender mercies of God would be but as a candle to the sun or a drop to the ocean. —Matthew Henry